♪♫Ikky Loves To Cha-Cha♪♫

I'm not one of the cool kids.
I don't wear cool stuff. If something I'm wearing is in fashion, its probably by coincidence. I used to dress edgier, now I am too self conscious about how I look to even try to draw attention to myself.
I don't say cool stuff. Normally when I talk to people my words get all jumbled and come out in the wrong order. I rarely explain myself well, because in my verbal 'paragraph' all the sentences come out backwards. I always forget to think before I speak.
I don't do cool stuff. I go to university. I go to debating. I come home. I go on Buzznet. I hang out at Richelle's. I go to work.
I don't listen to cool stuff. My taste in music is... abherrent to about 90% of society. I don't like any FBR bands, I thought Umbrella was a stupid song and I hate Katy Perry.
I don't have cool friends. My friends are nice, but oddballs. Except not really in a cool way, more a too-socially-retarded-to-find-anyone-else kind of way. My friends don't do cool things. They're boring like me.
I don't have any cool stories. I have done nothing in life. So far my life has been easy. I don't struggle; I have no great narrative. I have no story of my life. Just a poorly constructed series of loosely connected events with no plot line whatsoever (kind of like The Dark Knight!)
I don't make cool things. My photos are boring; they speak nothing about anything. They aren't... wow... they don't speak anything at all about humanity or who I am. My words never say enough, they leave too much to the reader, they get misinterpreted. My art is nothing special.
I don't date cool people. I've only had one 'boyfriend' (and I use that term loosely) and been asked out one other time.
I don't think about cool things. Mostly I day dream about love (why do I even need love to validify my existence?). I think about Buzznet. I think about things I wish I could say to people. Nothing ever results in much.
Everyone I used to be cooler than, is now cooler than me. Found their journey. Can actually communicate what they mean to other people. I'm still here; trying to make the fucking sense out out of anything; shooting myself in the foot with my character flaws, my social awkwardness, my lack of ability to dazzle anyone.

I am sick of this pressure. To feel like I am cool.
I'm sorry who I am isn't edgy or amazing or smart enough for you.

I'm a bit tired with Buzznet lately, like a piece of butter spread over too much bread.
I can;'t think of things to photograph anymore; my comments are bland and generic, I've just lost my jazz.
So I'm gonna head off for a  while. I'll probably be around, trolling posts (I cant give up buzznet altogether!), but I just dont have it in me to comment/post anymore.

I'll see you all around in a bit.

OH HAI BUZZNET!

With the gloriousness of Warped Tour coming to a close, its time to get preperations ready for next year.
Which of Buzznet's fabulously talented users should be the ones to get press-passes to send tid-bits of wonderful insider information and glorious photos of guitar-wielding Adonis to us back home, unable to attend?

I'm very glad you asked.

Seeing as nominations for who gets a press-pass from Buzznet for Warped Tour '09 appear to be open, I have 4, very special Buzznetters in mind, that I would like to nominate =]

1) UnSceneUnHeard

A seasoned veteran of concert photography, Shiona has what I can only describe as "the eye" for live photography. Even with a point and shoot from behind the barrier, every one of her live shots comes out like a work of art.

PLus she comes with mad technical skillz to get her camera ready and able to shoot just about any live situation Warped Tour could throw at her.




2) MiseryxChord

Misery is what I like to refer to as Buzznet's very own International Woman of Mystery. One only needs to peruse her band photography account Miseryslifeofdoom to see her clear aptitude and skills for photography. God only knows the amount of pilfering of her AFI photos alone is a testament to the love people have for the way she captures her subject matter.

Plus it was her photos that got me into the Dear & Departed =]



3) xBlanksFace

Her Press Pass from '08 Warped Tour gave us all a taste of what total awesomeness Sara is able to achieve with a little time and a good camera. She networks with band members. She takes photos (and totally rocking photos at that!). And she gets phone numbers.

Sara is the whole package wrapped up in a neat little package with crimson hair and a pretty bow on top.



4) TryingToFindTheWords

Watch out for her, she's a tiny photographic dynamo. Her best quality by far is the ability to capture perfect and interesting composition in the split second you have while trying to shoot a band member's pose. It's a skill many people simply dont have- there is so much more to photography than just clicking a button, and Savannah has what it takes.

Her concert photography skillz; let them dazzle you.

Does anyone remember those chain journals a while back where you make 10 confessions to people?
I'm bringing it back, because I need to rant.
9 out 10 of these people are Buzznetters also, so be paranoid.

1) YOU DON'T OWN BUZZNET!
You've been here all of ten minutes. Just because there are some people here who love everything you do, doesnt mean I have to. So please stop trolling and stepping on the admin's toes. Please.

2) YOU AREN'T ENTITLED TO ANYTHING!
I can't believe you had the audacity to do what you did. Then the audicity to censor anyone who didn't agree. You aren't entitled to anything, so stop acting like you are. Oh, and, your photography is shit. FYI.

3) Your code of morality is quickly becoming tiresome.
I don't understand why you can't deal with people disagreeing and being negative when you yourself are negative all the time.
Maybe I'm paranoid, but it always feels like you are taking a silent dig at me. Stop it.
Being a goody-two shoes doesn't you any respect from me. Sometimes you just have to learn to deal with honesty, even if its not what you want to hear.

4)You're a mysterious one, Mr Grinch.
Sometimes it drives me insane there is a part of you I will never know. Other times I love that it is part of your charm. Don't let the assholes get you down, don't become jaded like the way you are becoming. Don't hate the world because it would change the fantastic person you are.

5) I find great hilarity in the fact you don't like me, and had plans for my exit from Buzznet.
That's ok, I think you're boring.

6) I don't care that you don't like me.

7) I want to impress you constantly. Is it working?

8) Love? Not quite. But sometimes it feels close. She is all wrong for you, I am the one you need. I wish I could change the way you see me.

9) I can't wait.
Oh and also: please cheer up, it breaks my heart to see you down, you have everything to live for. You are adored, admired, and most of all loved. The negativity gets you down, and I see it, but it doesn't have to. People don't have to agree, you just have to keep being your sweet self and they'll come round. Even me, the most negative of them all. So chin up, blue skies are ahead. And keep next July empty.

10) I have been very wrong about you; I believed his lies.
You're actually pretty darn rockin'.
Sorry for those times I have been an asshole to you. Keep doing what it is you're doing. I for one see it, and appreciate it. Everything you have you deserve, and I'm glad you're here making buzznet the website it is.

1) How are you at the moment?
Annoyed there is nothing on TV because of the Olympics
2) Why?
Because I wanna watch some mindless TV and all there is Olympics which bore me.
3) give me 5 bestest persons at buzz.
ONLY 5!?!?!?!?!?! Noooo!!!!! Probably OunceofWentz, xxSuperSophiexx, VaginalDischarge, Skintight, Alexher123
and about a million others.
4) Do you like yourself?
Sometimes.
5) What do you like to do in your free time?
Buzznet
6)Do you think you're able to do everything you'd like to[right now, from that place, are you confident enough //not in future]?
Nope, maybe one day in the future. But at the moment I lack the confidence.
7) Do  you think fighting make any sense?
Fighting for what you believe in always makes sense
8) Was last question clever?
I've heard worse
9) Which places you'd like to visit?
Italy, Japan, Germany, South Korea, China, France, Ireland, Wales, England
10)Honestly, give me one person from buzz, who made you feel special, like their friend? why?
OunceofWentz. Its not often you find someone that has the same thoughts as you at the exact same time.
11) what's your mobile phone?
Nokia something or other.
12) would you like to have (new) one?
Its new, so I guess now. The iPhone looks pretty darn spiffy though.
13)Do you like to smile?
Yuppers
14) write poems?
Not often, I dont really like poems much
15) eat?
All the time
16) english?
Badly
17) french?
Une peu.
18)slovene?
No.
19) polish?
No
20) sports?
I dont like sport.
21) internet?
Yes, But i think we all know that
22) Do you think life gets better or worse day by day?
I'm reserving judgement. Sometimes it seems good, othertimes not so much
23) Are you nervous or calm person?
Um... both? I'm a very laidback person generally, but if something gets to me, I get intensely nervous.
24) Is there any message you'd like to tell the world?
STOP BEING ASSHOLES TO ONE ANOTHER
25) What's your favourite line in the song?
Am I nothing more, than a line in your book?
26) The cuttest thing you've ever heard?
MAH PUPPEH!
27) Do you love your parents?
When they're being good, and not clingy.
28)What would you do if tomorrow is the last day of your life?
Go tell people how much they mean to me, spend all my money, graffiti my old high school
29)Do you often think about death?
Sometimes. I fear it more than anything else.
30) is this the last question?
Oh, but do the questions ever really end?!

And I tag AnAmericanGod, SkullAmy, xBlanksface, xxsupersophiexx, Kywie

I don't even know what to say about this.
A teenaged girl is supposed to be teaching kids about safe sex now too?

Excuse me, but what the HALE?

I do believe that is the role of parents. And schools who now teach abstinence to get funding.

Oh, AND ANOTHER THING

Why is a condom company imposing sex on Miley?

Miley; GTFO. You make my head hurt.

Just stopping in to say OH HAI!

Manila is rather wonderful, although I am hating the weather, which is very hot and humid and a huge difference from the mild winter back home. The people here are very interesting though, they are extremely polite, although I feel a little sad about the obvious Westernisation of thier culture. The McDonalds tastes nicer here than at home.

My debate team won 4 debates and lost 4. I think I let down the team, it took me a few debates to warm up and get my groove. I will need to prepare more for next Australs which is being held at Monash University in Melbourne.

I have had many shenanigans thus far, one in particularly involved being completely drunk in Malate and going to like 4 different bars (one full of hookers) and getting back to the hotel at 5.30 am.

More when I get home + some rockin' photos =]

My last night in Aussieland for 2 weeks!!!!!


ZZOMMGGZZZ!!!!11!!!!one!!1111!


Tomorrow morning I leave for the Philippines for a debating tournament.

My parents are uber shitty, I have no where organised to stay for 4 days while I am there, and I see where they are coming from, because I would worry if I was them too, but I am looking forward to the spontenaity of it.... perhaps I am a stupid teenager, and this will be the first time I am away from my parents for more than 5 days, but I know there is lots of accomodation there, and I have 11 days to organised something during my debating tournament... my parents are never going to let me out of their sight without an organised itinerary down to the very minute next time =]

And a few shot from teh new camera to keep your appetite whetted until I come back. Although, if you're lucky I might email y'all something from my phone.

This makes me irritated.

Real love needs to be worked at. Constantly. Compromise, discussion, balance.

STFU VHudge.

Oh and also, to see her and Efron finish one anothers sentences would probably make me throw up.

Rules: List 12 songs that make you happy and tag 8 people.
(This is hard for me, considering all the music I listen to is really angsty and aggressive lol)

Hokay, so.

1. You Want Romance- Funeral for a Friend.
I talk about this song a lot, I know, But its one of my favourites. If the way I feel love could be embodied in a song, this would be it.

2. We Are Always Searching- I Am Ghost
It makes me happy. Its so upbeat =]

3. Seein' Diamonds- Hot Water Music
Such an awesome song, sometimes it hits me so hard with emotion my heart physically palpitates

4. A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me"- Fall Out Boy
When I first heard this, I wanted to dance. TRUFAX.

5. Today- Smashing Pumpkins
Excessively cheerful for a song about suicide really.

6.Where the City Meets the Sea- Getaway Plan
It's so melodic and beautiful

7. Right Side of the Bed- Atreyu
The guitar in it is awesome. I love this song =]

8. Critical Acclaim- Avenged Sevenfold
It's not really happy per se, but listening to it makes me happy because it's a.w.e.s.o.m.e

9.M&Ms- Blink-182
Because. A list of happy songs DESPERATELY requires Blink-182. 'nuff said.

10.Moondance- Van Morrison
I dunno. It's pretty self explanatory really.

11. Hearts Burst Into Fire- Bullet for My Valentine
OMGZ ITS POWER BALLAD CROSSED WITH METAL. WIN.

12. I Believe In A Thing Called Love- The Darkness
I have never met a person who didnt love this song. The Darkness are glam rockin' it like its 1979

AND BECAUSE ITS MY DAMN LIST AND I CAN DO 13 IF I FECKIN' WANT

13. Forever Gone, Forever You- Evanesence
Because. Shitty Demo tracks PWN.

Me taggy.... VaginalDischarge, Skintight, xCaliburr, OneSixSix, ChemicalApparatus, HideDontSeek, AnraTheBadAngel, Alexher123
and ehh whoever else wants to do it.

Well I wrote one of these AGES ago which quite adequately covered all the things I hate.

So rather than re hash all those things, all of which still shit me off, I figured I'd write a whole new list. Theres still plenty of things around to despise. And before John gets mad I'm being negative, I'd just like to say, that for everything I hate, its because it gets in the way of something I love or respect. So nerrrrrr.

10) I hate that I have an unrealistic expectations of love.
My best friend once told me the reason I dont have a boyfriend is that I place love on a pedestal. I naturally strenuously denied it, mainly because I feel irritated when people have an insight about me. Regardless of this its the annoying truth.



OMG THE FINALE OF LOST DESERVED A FRIGGIN EMMY.
BEST SEASON FINALE EVAR.
It is episodes like that that make me feel I should not settle for anything less than a rugged hottie from the UK who sailed all the way across the world to prove he was good enough for me. Me and Jerry got a little teary watching this as we did our weekly live blog. I DESERVE LOVE LIKE THIS AND WILL NOT SETTLE FOR LESS.

And there I go again.

9) I hate censorship
I don't really feel I need to elaborate on this a whole lot. I hate when some other person dictates morality and what is or isnt allowed to be said. I hate feeling silenced and controlled.

8) I hate stupid and/or ignorant people
I know I should feel sorry for them, because they're not bright and all. But frankly, I get frustrated when people are dense. They don't seek any further information about how the world works other than what they are spoon fed. People who allow the unfamiliar to scare them.

Oh, you'll love this.This semester at uni an irritating mature age student was in 3 of my lectures (no tutorials THANK GOD) and all through them would as stupid questions, most of which were already answered in the readings or in the lecture.

ANYWAY. During a political science lecture on feminism the lecturer asked the group who was a feminist *cue some hands* then asked the group who wasnt a feminist *cue some hands*. Then he asked the group why they werent feminists. And that dumbass puts her hand up and is like "Well I'm not a feminist, because when you think of feminist, most people think of dyke" *Cue fail* Oh, and it gets better. The lecturer is like "Do you think men can be feminists?" and shes like "Depends if they're gay!". *CUE EPIC FAILURE*

7) I hate people who use religious doctrine as an excuse for the way they live.
Just because the bible says that wives should submit to their husbands, doesnt mean that you can't believe in feminism in the 21st century. (As some other twat in that feminism lecture explained as her reason for not believing in feminism). If there is a god, I totally doubt he hates women so badly seeing as he gave *us* the ability to be just as rational as men AND have babies. Chyeah. Just because he's your husband, doesn't mean he's right all the time.
Plus I hate the way that extremist Muslims use the Quran as an excuse for bombing innocent people, when normal Muslims would never go for that sort of thing..
The same can be said for some fundamentalist Christians as well though, as their reason for bashing gay people or starting religious wars.

6) I hate myspace
And all the scene dregs that infest it.
I hate the way you cant track comments and friends posts. I hate the way that the admins don't care. I hate the way they don't feature anything. I hate the way the people send bulletins asking for comments. I hate the way it is trying to infect Buzznet. Bascially its a shithole of a site and I only still have one in order to effectively stalk Matt Davies I mean Funeral for a Friend. (Nice save there, Kristyn)

Woo thinking of which. Theyre new film clip is out, I stalked it out within an hour of it being released on their mysapce. I win at life.



5) I hate people who think that education is beneath them
Because it totally gets in the way of their being rebellious or smoking or being e-famouz or whatever.
Go to school, get an education, and don't be an ignorant twat.
Education is the only way to break poverty cycles, and there are people in the third world who would kill for the education you turn your nose up at.

4) I hate the people who order coffee where I work
I have discovered that lots of people are rude bastards. Like seriously, they mouth their order from like a metre away from the counter, next a loud coffee machine, then look at me like I'm retarded when I ask them to repeat their order. I have discovered lots of people mumble and dont open their mouth when they speak. Its sometimes fun to smile at people who are really cranky until they are forced to smile back (or grimace, more like).
I also hate people who order coffee from the cake counter. Seriously, its not so hard to order coffee from the coffee counter. It really isn't.

3) I hate it when you realise there isn't any toilet paper left on the roll.
It's just plain annoying.

2) I hate it when people are better at things than me.
It's been tough on my ego to not be the smartest person in every class at uni like I was at high school *sniff*

1) I hate the way its so obvious I like him.
Or at least in my mind.
(Yes, I realise this is a cop out)

Oh, and I got picked into one of the UNSW debating teams for Australs which is fair awesome xD

I seem to have a full blown rant at least once a week dont I?

Anyway. In this rant I have decided to impart to you all some lessons I have learnt over the years, because some recent ignorance by some people here on buzznet highlighted to me that many people really havent got a goddamn clue. And I'm here to educate, people (and now for the blaring contradiction to begin).

Heaps of you guys asked me what a burralong is, and theres not much about it on the internet because they've been hunted down a lot and are getting pretty rare (thank god).
During the '80's the government offered a price for hunting burralongs. A lot of Aboriginals took this offer because white people are generally shit scared of them lol lol. I think Kywie mentioned something about her dad catching them on his reserve.

Anyway I figured I'd paraphrase something out of one of my old animal books seeing as google is like noooo help and only wants to bring me pages about Burralong Rd in Queensland (who the fuck names a street after a vicious animal?)

From Australian Native Animals by Paul Shore 1987 Penguin Australia
Burralongs are small marsupials found native across most of the Australian continent, however have never been found on Tasmania. Their diet consists mainly of small rats and mice and various insects. They are extremely flexible in their diet and have been known to scavenge bins for meat scraps. For this reason they frequent camping grounds, which provide a source of easy food close to its bush home.

They closely resemble other Australian marsupials, looking extremely similar to a bandicoot, however are generally larger, and males have a poisonous spike behind their back paws, similar to a platypus. If attacked with this spike, it produces a fast spreading neurotoxin that can cause severe paralysis if not quickly treated with antivenin. There have been a number of recorded cases of small children dying after receiving a burralong sting.

Because of this poisonous spike, it is often suggested burralongs are the evolutionary link between marsupials and monotremes.

I cant find any pictures of it, except for this dodgy picture in this book, but it kind of looks like a big bandicoot-

(this is a bandicoot, i there arent any burralong pictures on google)



Anyway I hope that answers peoples questions.

my friend alison has just been bitten by a burralong.
she was out camping in byron bay and it must have crawled into the tent.
she has to go to hospital for the antivenin. i hope they catch it in time =( the poison starts to affect your central nervous system and cause paralysis.
really bad news.

I for one think that Selene is a great role model for women, and I'm sick of views of women being illustrated merely as play things. Its also high time we got a fair view of vampires as not merely sparkle p33ned lovers, but as the highly evolved killing machines they are.

 

	Selene from Underworld	Bella from Twilight
Status:	Vampire with genetic mutation, allowing her to go in sunlight	Human, wants to be a vampire that dazzles in the sunlight
Birth time and place	Born sometime in the 16th Century in rural Hungary. (Yet has remarkably modern approach to relationahips, bossing Michael around and not thinking twice about having passionate sex in a trailer before marriage)	Modern day middle America. (Yet has remarkably allowed Edward to treat her like 1950's housewife)
Relationships:	Currently shacks up with a buff Vampire/Lycan hybrid. Boyfriend leaves dents in cars.	In ridiculous love triangle between sparkle peened vampire (Edward) and werewolf (Jacob). Boyfriend leavs dents in cars.
Appearance	Leather clad, striking eyes, beautiful features	Teenaged casual, remarkably plain
Reason for wanting to be a vampire	To avenge the gruesome murder of her family by lycans	To be with her lover for eternity
Skillz	Superhuman physical abilites- a lean, mean fighting machine. Skilled with a variety of weapons, including swords, guns, and explosives. Is also skilled in torture and martial arts.	Is apparently bookish, although its hard to tell. Bella's skillz also include to trip on a gust of wind & the ability to out whine Morrissey. (Credit to skintight)
Can't live without	Blood	Edward
Approach to conflict	Does not wait to be saved; kills now/summons ancient vampires and asks questions later. Has slain the most powerful vampire Viktor and the oldest vampire Markus.	Waits to be saved by someone else, always male.
Thoughts on werewolves/Lycans	Kill him.	Debates with self about whether to date him
If her breaks got cut...	...its probably someone fighting the Lycan/Vampire war or avenging her renigade ways	...its because Edwards loves her
Current Whereabouts	On the run, in hope of leading a rebellion against corrupt vampires	Waiting around for Edward to marry her and take her virtue.

Who pwns harder?

This arvo there was another epic sky, I took some photos on the bus using my phone;

I havent been writing much lately on buzznet because of time constraints and uni and so forth, so I thought maybe I will share some of what I have written for uni with you. Some of its more interesting than other bits, but its very long, ranging from 1000 words to 1800.

Some of the things I might post;

Distributive Justice and Rawls (Its about the welfare system and whether or not we should provide welfare)
Medieval Autopsies
Darwin's Origin of Species and Natural Selection
The media's manipulation of how we understand crime

I've knocked off the boring ones I've written.

There might be a bit of a wait for the Darwin and the media one because I havent got them back yet, and all the essays we write get put through this filter that checks across the itnernet for plagiarism, and if they put in my essay after I had posted it on buzznet OH HAI 100% COPIED FROM SOME SCHOLAR ON TEH INTERNET.

Ok, maybe not scholar, but you get my point.

You all like the idea y/n? Or would you rather it in 500 word installments to make it easier to get through?

*chorus* Hi Kristyn!

I decided to scan some of my old Sailor Moon drawings. They arent too bad considering I drew then when I was like 13 or 14. I just cleaned up the backgrounds and the colour a bit. All colouring and shading is by hand.